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biifurcatiion) wrote2012-08-22 05:06 pm
biifurcatiion) wrote2012-08-22 05:06 pm
goodbye letters
Roxy
roxy
hey.
ii gue22 iit2 tiime we talked.
wow no that wa2 retarded, let me try thii2 again.
ii gue22 we have 2ort of managed two royally fuck up a bunch of thiing2 together with each other and a2 a re2ult we have 2topped being iin each other2 face2 all the time.
here, ii will even make iit easier and 2ay that iit wa2 all my fault, ii fucked iit up trying two do ii don't even fuckiing know anymore.
2o maybe youre not even goiing two notiice that iim gone unle22 ii do thii2.
but youre the 2econd mo2t competent per2on after me here, 2o ii am ba2iically dumping all my 2hiit iin your lap now.
ii never could recreate anythiing liike alterniian tech or get an apiiculture network off the ground, let alone actually get a 2emblance of a thiing liike the iinternet back iin the piicture but maybe you wiill 2uffer a debiiliitatiing 2troke and have your one and only fla2h of geniiu2 that tell2 you how two get all thii2 together.
and iim
2orry that thiing2 diidnt work out the way they were 2uppo2ed two.
maybe next tiime? a2 though ii 2hould be 2o lucky for there even two be a next tiime, let alone get a 2econd chance at anythiing.
because let2 face iit the chance2 of me 2eeiing you agaiin are ba2iically nil, on account of the fact that ii wiill eiither be dead or bliind or both, becau2e iit2 not liike the uniiver2e ever pull2 iit2 punche2.
but ii 2tiill hate your gut2, roxy, even iif you dont hate me back anymore.
wow that got 2appy but who the fuck care2, iit2 not liike ii wiill even be here two take the heat for iit or have two face you.
2o bye, ii gue22.
dont get kiilled by eriidan.
<3<
Jade
ii know why we 2topped talkiing.
ii know what you probably diidnt want two tell me eiither.
ii cant blame you becau2e ii wouldnt want two tell me eiither and iit wa2 ea2iier two iignore iit and pretend iit wa2nt happeniing than actually acknowledge iit.
ii thiink ii knew iit the moment you triied two let me down what wa2 goiing two happen.
iit2 not ok wiith me.
iit2 not ok at all.
but that2 how 2hiit work2, 2ometiime2 thiing2 arent ok and iit2 nobody2 fault that they arent ok and you have two liive wiith that.
becau2e ii know youre goiing two do thii2, ii pre-emptiively forgiive you for whatever 2tupiid thiing you are goiing two iineviitably blame your2elf for iin regard2 two what happened.
iit2 not your fault.
you were probably riight, even, about a lot of thiing2 even iif ii wa2 too much of a douchebag two admiit that two you or want two 2ee iit.
iim 2orry for beiing the world2 biigge2t a22hole.
and ye2, we were friiend2.
you were my really good friiend and even iif iim not goiing two remember ever agaiin
thank2 for that.
Namine
ii piity you.
ii know you 2aiid you couldnt really under2tand what iit meant when ii a2ked you two be my moiiraiil but you diid a really good job.
iim glad ii diid iit.
and gue22 what, you needed iit a2 much a2 ii do, 2o youre welcome for the le22on2 iin 2elf iimprovement and haviing a 2en2e of humor.
dont let tz do anythiing 2tupiid iif you can.
iim 2orry thii2 ii2nt how ii wanted thiing2 two go but ii know you wiill do all riight wiithout me 2omehow.
better than ii would do wiithout you and you wont even be able two argue wiith me about that now 2o ju2t accept iit a2 fact.
apart from what ii left roxy all my 2tuff ii2 your2 two do wiith what you want even iif there ii2nt a whole lot of iit two begiin wiith.
<>
iit wiill be ok.
Terezi
bye a22hole.
try two keep the murderiing and the drubbiing and your bat2hiit crazy down two a miiniimum now that ii can no longer be here two tell you how two remove your head from where you have jammed iit up your 2phiincter.
ii am 2ure namiine wiill be glad two kiick your a22 iif iit ever requiire2 iit.
dont get weiird wiithout me, maybe ii wiill be back.
that2 the thiing you wont ever remember untiil iit happen2, but everybody alway2 come2 back eventually and ii know next tiime you 2ee me you wiill hold iit agaiin2t me.
becau2e youre ju2t a2 much of a douchebag a2 ii am.
iit wiill work out tz.
dont crack.
Karkat
ii know becau2e youre a pompou2 2elf-loathiing a22hole who2 conviinced hiim2elf he ha2 two be re2pon2iible for all of u2 that you miight blame your2elf for the fact that iim about two fuck off and leave you all alone.
and ii know thii2 becau2e ii have, iin fact, watched other ver2iion2 of your2elf do iit before.
but ii am goiing two tell you, knowiing full well that thii2 wiill be the one and only tiime ii wiill ever type the2e word2 AND that you are NOT GOIING TWO LII2TEN
iit ii2nt your fault thii2 time you a22hole.
iit wa2 never your fault, you ju2t conviinced your2elf that everythiing iin the uniiver2e that happen2 ha2 two be about you and thu2 everythiing bad that happen2 ii2 the re2ult of 2omethiing you diid 2omewhere.
or maybe you wont thiink thii2! maybe you have undergone a per2onaliity labotomy! maybe you ju2t dont giive a fuck anymore or youre from 2ome part of your liife ii wiill never get two 2ee becau2e ii diied.
ju2t try for once iin your liife two keep iit together, though, ok?
chance2 are ii wiill be back wiith no memory ii ever 2aid thii2 and then you can lord iit over me 2o that 2hould make you happy.
good luck man.
you are goiing two need iit.
roxy
hey.
ii gue22 iit2 tiime we talked.
wow no that wa2 retarded, let me try thii2 again.
ii gue22 we have 2ort of managed two royally fuck up a bunch of thiing2 together with each other and a2 a re2ult we have 2topped being iin each other2 face2 all the time.
here, ii will even make iit easier and 2ay that iit wa2 all my fault, ii fucked iit up trying two do ii don't even fuckiing know anymore.
2o maybe youre not even goiing two notiice that iim gone unle22 ii do thii2.
but youre the 2econd mo2t competent per2on after me here, 2o ii am ba2iically dumping all my 2hiit iin your lap now.
ii never could recreate anythiing liike alterniian tech or get an apiiculture network off the ground, let alone actually get a 2emblance of a thiing liike the iinternet back iin the piicture but maybe you wiill 2uffer a debiiliitatiing 2troke and have your one and only fla2h of geniiu2 that tell2 you how two get all thii2 together.
and iim
2orry that thiing2 diidnt work out the way they were 2uppo2ed two.
maybe next tiime? a2 though ii 2hould be 2o lucky for there even two be a next tiime, let alone get a 2econd chance at anythiing.
because let2 face iit the chance2 of me 2eeiing you agaiin are ba2iically nil, on account of the fact that ii wiill eiither be dead or bliind or both, becau2e iit2 not liike the uniiver2e ever pull2 iit2 punche2.
but ii 2tiill hate your gut2, roxy, even iif you dont hate me back anymore.
wow that got 2appy but who the fuck care2, iit2 not liike ii wiill even be here two take the heat for iit or have two face you.
2o bye, ii gue22.
dont get kiilled by eriidan.
<3<
Jade
ii know why we 2topped talkiing.
ii know what you probably diidnt want two tell me eiither.
ii cant blame you becau2e ii wouldnt want two tell me eiither and iit wa2 ea2iier two iignore iit and pretend iit wa2nt happeniing than actually acknowledge iit.
ii thiink ii knew iit the moment you triied two let me down what wa2 goiing two happen.
iit2 not ok wiith me.
iit2 not ok at all.
but that2 how 2hiit work2, 2ometiime2 thiing2 arent ok and iit2 nobody2 fault that they arent ok and you have two liive wiith that.
becau2e ii know youre goiing two do thii2, ii pre-emptiively forgiive you for whatever 2tupiid thiing you are goiing two iineviitably blame your2elf for iin regard2 two what happened.
iit2 not your fault.
you were probably riight, even, about a lot of thiing2 even iif ii wa2 too much of a douchebag two admiit that two you or want two 2ee iit.
iim 2orry for beiing the world2 biigge2t a22hole.
and ye2, we were friiend2.
you were my really good friiend and even iif iim not goiing two remember ever agaiin
thank2 for that.
Namine
ii piity you.
ii know you 2aiid you couldnt really under2tand what iit meant when ii a2ked you two be my moiiraiil but you diid a really good job.
iim glad ii diid iit.
and gue22 what, you needed iit a2 much a2 ii do, 2o youre welcome for the le22on2 iin 2elf iimprovement and haviing a 2en2e of humor.
dont let tz do anythiing 2tupiid iif you can.
iim 2orry thii2 ii2nt how ii wanted thiing2 two go but ii know you wiill do all riight wiithout me 2omehow.
better than ii would do wiithout you and you wont even be able two argue wiith me about that now 2o ju2t accept iit a2 fact.
apart from what ii left roxy all my 2tuff ii2 your2 two do wiith what you want even iif there ii2nt a whole lot of iit two begiin wiith.
<>
iit wiill be ok.
Terezi
bye a22hole.
try two keep the murderiing and the drubbiing and your bat2hiit crazy down two a miiniimum now that ii can no longer be here two tell you how two remove your head from where you have jammed iit up your 2phiincter.
ii am 2ure namiine wiill be glad two kiick your a22 iif iit ever requiire2 iit.
dont get weiird wiithout me, maybe ii wiill be back.
that2 the thiing you wont ever remember untiil iit happen2, but everybody alway2 come2 back eventually and ii know next tiime you 2ee me you wiill hold iit agaiin2t me.
becau2e youre ju2t a2 much of a douchebag a2 ii am.
iit wiill work out tz.
dont crack.
Karkat
ii know becau2e youre a pompou2 2elf-loathiing a22hole who2 conviinced hiim2elf he ha2 two be re2pon2iible for all of u2 that you miight blame your2elf for the fact that iim about two fuck off and leave you all alone.
and ii know thii2 becau2e ii have, iin fact, watched other ver2iion2 of your2elf do iit before.
but ii am goiing two tell you, knowiing full well that thii2 wiill be the one and only tiime ii wiill ever type the2e word2 AND that you are NOT GOIING TWO LII2TEN
iit ii2nt your fault thii2 time you a22hole.
iit wa2 never your fault, you ju2t conviinced your2elf that everythiing iin the uniiver2e that happen2 ha2 two be about you and thu2 everythiing bad that happen2 ii2 the re2ult of 2omethiing you diid 2omewhere.
or maybe you wont thiink thii2! maybe you have undergone a per2onaliity labotomy! maybe you ju2t dont giive a fuck anymore or youre from 2ome part of your liife ii wiill never get two 2ee becau2e ii diied.
ju2t try for once iin your liife two keep iit together, though, ok?
chance2 are ii wiill be back wiith no memory ii ever 2aid thii2 and then you can lord iit over me 2o that 2hould make you happy.
good luck man.
you are goiing two need iit.